Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Love

I Wondering if you ever there,
I imagine what will I feel..if you here,
but where?? where can I find you?? where are you really?? it has been long long time since my first baby's cry and learn my lung to breathe, I believe you will be there, I believe you exist and real, I believe in every dream and angel..there's nothing to fear, I believe in you will never giving me up but I wonder " Love, where are you now? I am so tired,too much wound my legs can't walk no more and still I wonder " Love, where are you now??
I am so tired wandering alone lamely here and there, exhausted wondering " why people have to being so cruel?? Love, where are you?

I wonder" Love, where you hide??
"Love, I don't want to giving you up but I am so tired chasing and track on your trace still I wonder blury " where are you?? I couldn't move no more, I have no dream no more, I have no lively no more... all I want to do only close my eyes and sleep till my heart stop beat and die, Love, I groan silently and hopelessly stare at my vein dripping out every blood drop by drop from my fresh cuts on my left wrist, it's such a horrified view and painful but it won't even stop my brain memories every hurts..I wonder" Love, where are you??

2 comments:

@bee said...

Shannon, I just alone living on my own there's no one will sad or hurt when I gone because I am getting old and useless...
knowing that I've commit suicide was really hurt, knowing that I am give up and don't want to live more longer. I was really stupid but life was totally cruel people fake their shit.. I already learnt the lesson since I was a kid, all the human are same.. there's nothing called real love/ real care..they faked it!! knowing this is was the real hurt and totally disappointed, I am tired :( suffering on mood swing and people think that I just being drama and self pity but who's fault anyway? who want to care?? if I had tried my best to understand why I have to live this kind of life..

@bee said...

yeah.. if I am die there's no more birthday for me.. I love You Shannon for everything...