hehehhee...Im back

Yoiii...Im back now...hahhahaa! I've been around the hell..pweh..it was scary but not scared me off! so what? huh! Im told you before right?Im dude..........why dude? why not babe?!! oke let me explain..why not dude? why must babe? enough?#xyz@!~......... whatever la..
well..here my apologize make you worried oh..hope you're worried about me..i know you did ge la thx you! and I know you pray for me gee la! that help me escaped from the hell and stand up and hit the ground again..thank you very much.......here apiece story that I grab from the hell..
na..the story of me..ivy@bee {Im not planing to sell my story so you don't think to buy it...ok?!
what you feel and what you reply when somebody asking what is your religion?my answer must be" nope I dont have one! it just like when somebody asking me do you have BF? my answer would be" nope I dont have one!...in fact I have and it was long time ago!when Im child! Im 15 yrs old I make decision to not trust kinda belief so..i just believe myself and I though that Im strong enough to lead my body and soul to safe and peacefull space! nothing can hurt me no one can confused me! started to built the walls put my heart inside lock the door and destroy the key. afraid somebody find out the heart because there lots of secret,lots of memory and sins!
i was 15 when I yell to Lord why create body and soul for me and not willing to protect my soul and body! I just a little girl who is obey to Lord always remember my Lord listening and following my Lord......and believe there's always be happiness and heaven for me and my family but...He didn't heard me when Im praying! he don't care when Im asking. He let me hopeless and I leave......13 years been in HKG dude life in dude own way! no more praying! no more crying! always smiling! though Im tough enough! though Im strong enough! though Im okay!..
until..Im fed up to hiding and I want to crying and I need to telling and hope He willing listening and lead me back to His palace..and hope there's still have space for dude to laying and praying
and hope His forgive..........and I know there always forgiven for every sinner.............amien!
so...Im here again ............yoiii.............you might say that Im bullshit it's okay for me anyway!
listen............find your way back to Lord la..!