went to church......

Dear dude,John colleague of mine asked me go to church after working hour..yup this sunday and I must work,John also must work...........according him refer from recently analysis about my attitude..the result is I'm down,can't control myself, emotional,bad behaviour,don't want behave myself..yup Im reject to behave myself..................................I say yes! to him
honesty..........I don't have any belief........since I fed up and leaved my Lord when I was 15
during 13 yrs in HKG I always telling I dont have any belief and it's okay anyway! that's it!
may be John, right!...............I need talk and tell my unhappiness to Him..my Lord!!