my broken ship

Dear dude, Im here talk to you again,my dear! I felt so sorry!! I'm lost during my way looking for a ship..and Im still spinning and twisted perhaps could meet the right one!! so sad but true there's just only one I wanted but it was broken already..I tried to fix it up but it's really difficult.. much of demanding here....it's spent all my energy!! it's spent all my affection!! it's a nighmare!!
kindly please teach me how to fix my broken ship? coz I can't go on..Im stucked up here!! please help to release me...and Im promise there's will be a affectionately and this blog is my sorry!!!